Everything has been so crazy lately. Everything is confusing. Everything is changing! I know this may sound cliché, by my world has basically turned upside-down lately! I'm questioning everything I once believed in. Nothing seems right anymore.
I've been so confused about….everything in general. I've been writing songs to express my feelings, and it does really help! I already have 2 written, and I'm halfway done with another one.
Music has been pulling me through lately. I can't get through without my iPod, specifically the Instant Star soundtracks. But what's even wierder is that I think I'm falling for Jude (from Instant Star)! Is it possible/healthy to fall for a TV character? Is that just wierd?
But she is so….real! She's not a manufactured starlette. All her music is so deep and true! The refrain to "How I Feel" has totally described how I've been lately. It's my anthem!
I'm completely unconnected,
Constantly rejected,
Like everything I've ever loved is coming down.
I'm drowning in emotion,
In the middle of the ocean,
Never knowing when it's over and I'm going down.
That's how I feel.
I can so totally relate to that! It's ALL true and it all ALL applies to me.
Ugh….what's a guy to do?
You can reach into your creative bag of tricks today and pull multi-colored rabbits out of boring old hats. You can playfully wave your magic mind and turn barren fields into beautiful mountains. It feels like you can do anything as long as you don’t accept the limitations that others place on you. Escape from the box and nothing will hold you back.
And whose team came in second place in “It’s Linguistic!”? Lordy, lordy, this is some crazy stuff.
Cara emailed me earlier telling me that she had to cancel tonight. Today's horoscope:
You may run into a relationship wall today as someone rejects your romantic or professional advances. Maybe you've just met someone who is highly individualistic and needs more independence than you do. Don't be afraid to tell them what you want, even if you might not get it your way. If, however, the other person is your boss, you might just have to keep your perspective to yourself and do what must be done in order to keep the peace.
Good lord! I mean I wasn't romantically advancing on Cara, but it was just two friends, and she didn't reject me or anything. But RELATIONSHIP WALL? That's kinda like what happened…..I guess? Sort of? Maybe?
This astrology stuff is freaking me out.
Okay so I have a personalized Google page where I display a number of the Google “widget’ thingies, including a horoscope widget, and, let me tell you, this thing has been freakishly accurate lately. FREAKISHLY accurate. Now, today’s hasn’t been that….like…..right, but for the past week this astrology stuff has been ON FIRE! I’ve been very emotionally distressed due to situations at school, and I’ve been kind of pushy lately, which is just what this thing has been saying! It’s scary! I mean how do these people come up with this stuff? It’s amazing (yet scary)!
So, in other news, I just downloaded the soundtrack for Instant Star, season 2. I’m somewhat disappointed. The first season’s music was AWESOME! Like 150% awesome. But this season is like….only 105% awesome. I’ve only listened up to like #10, though. Maybe some more surprises await me. My favorite cuts so far include There’s Us, Natural Disaster, Fade to Black, How Strong Do You Think I Am, Not Standing Around, and My Sweet Time. Okay, so I guess that’s most of them so far. Whatever. It’s a good album, and I would still reccomend it, but get the first season if you have the cash.
Podcast Episode #1 is currtently gone.
I’m trying to work out the kinks.
I’m trying to get it submitted into the iTunes Music Store in the Podcast directory, however I think my thingies are like dumb or something because it’s not really working. Whatever. I’ll update you on that later!
Update 8/25/06 I have a feeling that this whole podcast thing is going nowhere, and fast.? If I ever get this worked out, I’ll post on the frontpage.
Uhhhhh…..I posted the other day about my trip to Washington and included pics from Washington and the new computer but like it….disappeared? So….ummmm…like. This is wierd because even the pix I uploaded for the post are totally gone. Maybe it was just a…dream? I'm confused.
Well anyway I'm working on getting my podcasts available to the general public. Look forward to that! :)
New computer!
iMac running Mac OS 10.4, 17 inch screen.
More tech specs and pix to come.