it must be the madness

I think I’m going through a “stage” right now…I’ve really been wanting to go off and do my own thing lately.

Lately, I’ve been very emotionally confused. I keep having mood swings and stuff, and I really don’t want to be around a lot of people. I’d rather chill with two or three people than be part of a huge group. You know what I’m talking about? I feel very overwhelmed. If it were up to me, I’d stay in bed all week and just…take some time off. But I can’t do that. Damn.

I really enjoyed today. I basically did nothing productive and just kind of bummed around, doing things that are fun to me. I totally blew off all of my homework until five minutes ago, but it wasn’t like I had an abundance of work to complete.

But yeah, I’ve felt very bohemian today. I really want to make some kind of music. The only problem is that I can’t write my way out of a paper bag for a song….er, I’m not a songwriter. In addition, the only instrument I can play is the clarinet, and I can’t really sing along with my own clarinet playing, not to mention that I such at playing it. So I’m kind of stuck. I made some really cool wallpapers in Photoshop to try and channel my creative energy, and I guess that kind of helped. But I want to sing. I’m glad that I have Voice on Tuesday…we’re recording! I’m excited, even though I’m not as prepared as I should be.

So yeah. If I’m acting kind of quiet and out of it tomorrow, don’t take it personally.

(I sound like I’m on my period!)